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What is it like to live in a country where you don’t belong?

Slowly and gradually you will start to hate the people around you, because you will understand every single word you hear is a type of mockery or sarcasm. You will find yourself surrounded by a number of nasty people who will try to make you sad in every move they make and in every gesture possible.  They attack your health by injecting wrong medicines into your blood and harm you by contaminating every single morsel of food you require to eat to survive.

You are blamed of all kinds of crimes you have never committed and everybody is somehow against you without having any proper reason.

You will change your mind about a whole nation or a whole culture, losing all your optimism about humanity and co-existence.

You will turn into a person who is awaiting and preferring his death rather than the miserable life you are living in with the health problems they create for you, being afraid to go to the doctor for treatment due to deterioration of your health by every time you go to the doctor and by the number of attacks on your health.

You change your behavior towards others and become more unsocial and isolated because you prefer not to hear further stupid and annoying comments and sarcasm.

You’ll be nervous and cautious all the time and you will not trust anyone around you anymore and you will also lose your ability to smile toward others and you will learn the same culture of artificial smiles while you can’t smile deep down in your heart.

You will get depression and tension at a very high level due to the angry people you face every day. You will understand the real meaning of some new words which will appear in your life such as racism, discrimination, phobias, fascism, Nazism and hate.

You will get used to hear none-stopping bad words and negative comments at all times without any reason. The word “Sorry” will come out automatically out of your mouth more than 50 times per day without you notice it yourself.

You learn how to ignore some bad words or smile at people who use bad words against you, without getting angry at them.

Be ready to answer any kind of strange and insulting questions about your country, your culture, yourself and whatever belongs to you.

Your education, your skills and your initiatives will be underestimated or being not considered as a positive thing.

When you see people doing things not right or not the right manner, you better don’t criticize, you should better say some nice words such as “well done”, “bravo”, “good job” or react with a body language such as thumbs up gesture or something very positive.

You might better say everything about yourself and answer the most private questions about yourself but do not ask the same questions from the other party, because you may hurt the other person. Almost everyone else has the right to ask questions from you, as if you are being under the investigation of a crime or something but you don’t have to ask any. It is generally accepted code of conduct in most of the cultures.

When two other people talk some bad words against you in another language or a language they might think you don’t know, but you know it very well, then keep smiling at those guys, and pretend that you don’t know that language.

If you speak your own language in the lunch break with your only friend from your country, a racist will appear and ask you "Speak My Language" and then you should say "Okay Sir, I will, sorry for this time".

This is how you feel when you live in another country.